Reason #1 for attending Blogher’12 :
Gosh, it feels selfish even saying that.
Pretty simply put, I feel guilty, sick to my stomach and nervous to leave my babies & husband after what feels like a very long and short 19 months. But then I remember the two years of being consumed by just wanting a baby, leading up to the pregnancy. And then I think about the 36 weeks of pregnancy and my daily devotion of getting them here healthy and kicking. And oh yea, the eight weeks of bed-rest. And the gray hairs. The sleepless nights. The yoga pants that I never seem to get out of. The teeth that sometimes get brushed. The ponytail that always gets picked. The boob sweat that happens with just a simple trip to Costco. The tears that stay inside because I’m too busy to cry them. The girls nights out that are half-ish relaxing because “I’m back on the clock in 8 hours and counting.” The distracted date nights with my husband. The yoga classes of planning a grocery list during shavasana.
And for all the days and nights I’ve spent loving those babies, I think I can go love on myself for a few days.
And I think it’s completely acceptable to wear new cute shoes, have a glass of wine and laugh with other girls I haven’t even met yet … while loving on myself.
So with that, me, myself and I – (and those, again, are the only three people I know going) are ready!
P.S. Ready is a lie. I’m not ready.